Unexpected Yummmmm!!!

Look what arrived this afternoon!

(and yes, there was 1 already missing when I took this picture!)

I love my IP's so much :) You guys rock!!!

The Results are In!

I started testing at 4dp5dt, which is way early, but I couldn't help myself. I had allot of cramping this time around, and early on, and was really hoping to see an early positive! Well, instead of seeing the pretty pink 2nd line, I was seeing nothing but the control line. For 3 days and 7 tests, nothing. To say I was disappointed was an understatement. With this result at this stage (4dp, 5dp & 6dp) I had pretty much convinced myself that the transfer must have failed. I wanted to be mentally prepared for the negative beta so I stopped testing and had reconciled myself the fact that I wouldn't be hearing good news. I had 2 more tests so I decided I would do one on Sat night and the 2nd on Sun morning.

BUT, thanks to my surro friend Jenni, she convinced me to test again on Fri (7dp), for no other reason than I was feeling horribly nauseous. She was convinced it would be positive! So when I finally got home, I peed on a stick, threw it on the bathroom counter and walked away. About an hour later when I went back into the bathroom, I glanced at the test and thought I saw something...so held it up and looked, and squinted, and stared, and changed the angles a million times. I definitely saw an ever-so-faint-barely-there 2nd line! So, this made me obsess...and I tested more. Every test resulted in a slightly darker, yet still faint, positive.

Ok, so now I had hope again....I couldn't decide if this was good or bad! If the beta was negative, then we'd know the ++ HPT's were just a fluke. And if the beta was positive, would a low number give me more hope or less?

Well, I have my answer....beta this morning at 9dp5dt resulted in 25.6. Our clinic likes to see at least 50, so VERY low, but a positive beta! So, I am chosing to be cautiously optimistic at this point, and will wait & see what happens with Tuesday's repeat beta. I am praying that I am definitely pregnant and not dealing with a chemical pregnancy or blighted ovum or another potential miscarriage situation, and am hopeful that this little baby wants to stick around for the next 36 weeks and make my uterus his/her new home!

Prayers are appreciated - obviously :)

Well, do you or don't you???

She doesn't. M doesn't want to know what my HPT results have been, so therefore you don't get to know either! But its safe to say I have tested, quite a few times actually. And no, that's not a give-away to whether they've been negative or positive, because when they are positive, I keep testing (because I inherited my friend Jenni's sickness for HPT's), and when they are negative, I keep testing in hopes of seeing a positive! So yes, I've been testing...allot...since 4dp. Yes, that's early to test, but its MY sickness and I'll do with it what I please, thank you very much!!!

Stay tuned...BETA is in just 2 days... Sunday @ 7:30AM. Results will be in just a few hours past that.

Take 2!

Transfer went well this AM, but not without a stupid-me moment! Thankfully I didn't end up on the toilet again - altho I was told to stop drinking when my stomach got upset, and had to chew 4 TUMS to get it calmed :) But there's nothing like being situated on the bed, having the staff come in to get me prepared - and to be told "um, you left your panties on"! Yep, totally forgot to lose them before going into the room. Had to remove them under the sheet - with everyone watching - and pass them off to Michael to put into his pocket! Anyway, not nearly as embarrassing as the last transfer, but yet another story. Altho, in my defense, I'd had taken my valium by that point....so that's what I blamed it on :)

Anyway, we did an FET and both embies thawed with hardly any degeneration! One had only re-hydrated to 60% but they felt certain it would continue to improve once transferred, the other was 100% and almost perfect :)

So, I am reclined in bed and resting, and praying that these little babies stick & grow!! I'll probably starting peeing on HPT's by Weds - if I can wait that long!!!

Thanks to you all for your well-wishes and prayers!

Milestones in my Journey

1 year ago today, this precious little miracle was born, and met her mommy & daddy for the first time!

Happy 1st Birthday sweet Emma!!!

Ultrasound & Labs Today!

Well, today's ultrasound was as good as I hoped it would be - lining was 12.9! Anything over 8 is great :) So now we're just waiting for the lab numbers to come in, but are really hoping they are much higher since the lining looked so good. Holding my breath!!

Update: Estrogen was 522! And lining was 13.2 not 12.9 :) We're officially scheduled to transfer on 4/29/11 @ 1:30!!!

Updates

I had my first lab today - estrogen was low (20) and I am not happy :( My estrogen usually is way ahead of the game so I expected more of the same. Not the case this go-around. The RE nurse said that this is typical when you've had a miscarriage and it just takes your body a little time to respond - sometimes a little more time than is typical. So, we will keep on schedule, for now, and hope that my labs next Monday will be where they should be! I'm a bit of an over-achiever, so I'm bummed out.