Sunday, May 8, 2011

The Results are In!

I started testing at 4dp5dt, which is way early, but I couldn't help myself. I had allot of cramping this time around, and early on, and was really hoping to see an early positive! Well, instead of seeing the pretty pink 2nd line, I was seeing nothing but the control line. For 3 days and 7 tests, nothing. To say I was disappointed was an understatement. With this result at this stage (4dp, 5dp & 6dp) I had pretty much convinced myself that the transfer must have failed. I wanted to be mentally prepared for the negative beta so I stopped testing and had reconciled myself the fact that I wouldn't be hearing good news. I had 2 more tests so I decided I would do one on Sat night and the 2nd on Sun morning.

BUT, thanks to my surro friend Jenni, she convinced me to test again on Fri (7dp), for no other reason than I was feeling horribly nauseous. She was convinced it would be positive! So when I finally got home, I peed on a stick, threw it on the bathroom counter and walked away. About an hour later when I went back into the bathroom, I glanced at the test and thought I saw held it up and looked, and squinted, and stared, and changed the angles a million times. I definitely saw an ever-so-faint-barely-there 2nd line! So, this made me obsess...and I tested more. Every test resulted in a slightly darker, yet still faint, positive.

Ok, so now I had hope again....I couldn't decide if this was good or bad! If the beta was negative, then we'd know the ++ HPT's were just a fluke. And if the beta was positive, would a low number give me more hope or less?

Well, I have my answer....beta this morning at 9dp5dt resulted in 25.6. Our clinic likes to see at least 50, so VERY low, but a positive beta! So, I am chosing to be cautiously optimistic at this point, and will wait & see what happens with Tuesday's repeat beta. I am praying that I am definitely pregnant and not dealing with a chemical pregnancy or blighted ovum or another potential miscarriage situation, and am hopeful that this little baby wants to stick around for the next 36 weeks and make my uterus his/her new home!

Prayers are appreciated - obviously :)


Tiffany said...

Jenn I'm so sorry today's beta didn't bring you all more assurance. I'm pulling for the lil button and hoping for the very best. {{{HUGS}}}

Julie said...

I think what you're doing is unbelievable...hang in there and remember there are people on the outside who have you in their thoughts and prayers (like me)

A womb for rent said...

Come on numbers.. double every day!!!!!!! Im wishing you comfort for the good news!!!

TXSurromom said...

Oh Jennifer, I am praying for you and that little one in there! Crossing everything I have for you and your IPs!!!!!

GINGER R F said...

I pray to God he lets a baby grow inside of you so it can be born and your IP's can be parents and have the chance to Love And Nurture that precious Angel. The numbers may be low but, as long as it is over 5 then you are pregnant. If they double then you have a good chance of not losing the baby. Hopefully your body will safely nurture that angel and let you bring it into the world in 8 months. God Bless U

A Simple Follower (not a surrogate and not a mom)
I just love babies and the gift of pregnancy and birth
I am an aunt to 2 boys who I Love so much