God had a different thought today

This is Allison

Well, God's timing is not ours is it? I'm realizing that more and more every day as we progress in this journey. Often we throw temper tantrums and say..."I want it now!". Well, I've said that for weeks now and it's just not His timing. I'm referring to my U/S and bloodwork today. Half good news/half bad. My lining was thinner (good), the progesterone was low (good), but the estrogen was out the roof (bad). So, he is having me quadruple my Lupron intake. Holy moly! I wish they would have thought of this weeks ago, but here we are. I know there's a reason from above as to why it hasn't happened yet, but I just don't know what it is. And that's ok, I know it's for our own good.

I'm not as drastically upset as I was last week. I guess I'm coming to terms with "waiting". :) I know we're going to have a baby/babies sometime and it's all going to work out wonderfully. I'm trying to "rest" in the peace that I'm feeling right now.

Thanks again to everyone for all of the support and prayers. They mean the world to Jenn and I. And I'm so thankful for Jenn with her patience during all of this as well. I love you bunches girl!


P.S.
Oh, and by the way, my hubby wasn't thrilled about the quadripling of the Lupron. He says I've been a "pill" on just the low dose I'm currently on. I think he might steer clear of me while I'm on it. Poor thing. Maybe he needs a few prayers for his sanity as well. :)

I'm outta here