This is Allison~
and all through the house
everyone was nervous
even my spouse
Ok, I'm done, I'm not a good rhymer. :) But it was funny while it lasted huh? Well, tomorrow is the the BIG DAY. My stomach is in knots. I'm very nervous and have feelings of anxiety. It's almost that same feeling as when you're little and Christmas is coming. But it's even more nerve wracking. I've been trying to keep my mind off of it, but it's hard. This is all that has been on my mind since over a year ago. This is what I've been living and breathing every day for over a year. How do you "not" think about it. :)
I had a great time with Jenn today. We all had lunch first. Then Jenn and I went out and got some groceries and got some gift cards for a couple of places to eat so Michael doesn't have to cook this weekend while she's on bedrest. So, hopefully they have everything they need so she can be comfortable and not worry about things. She'll be on bedrest the remainder of the day tomorrow and then all day Sunday. I hope she enjoys the time to just chill out and relax. :)
Well, we've done everything we could up until this point. It's out of our hands. We just have to have faith at this point that it works and that whatever God's will is will be the outcome. I know some people don't believe in "God's will", etc, but I really do. Sometimes things are just not meant to be. I hope this journey for us IS though. I have to believe that until proven wrong otherwise. One of the hardest things to do is to give up control of something. We have absolutely no control whatsoever. We have done all that we can do right now. But by golly, that doesn't mean I'm not nervous as all get out. I just want it to work. I wanna be a Mommy and I want Doug to be a Daddy. I have to believe it's going to happen. If I didn't believe, what good is faith?
At this point, I think I'm just rambling. :) Tomorrow is going to be an interesting morning. Jenn and I have all of our stuff ready go to. We are wearing the same yellow good luck shirts that I bought us, wearing the same green/yellow socks that Jenn bought us and wearing the same green/yellow bracelets that a friend made for us. We'll be so cute. :) Also I've got my camera ready. If any of you know me, you know I am not a camera person. I've had to pull out my instruction book to even figure out what to do with it. I know, pathetic. But I'm getting there.
I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be.......heading to bed in a little while, hoping that I don't toss and turn like I have for the last 4 nights.
Over and out....